I have been anxious about the return of H after an almost 2 month absence as well as knowing he is now in R with OW. Running through my head are various images of him being 'happy' smug, gloating, 'in love' . And I imagine my reaction. But then I realised that I shouldnt wait to see how he is to decide my reaction. I will be who/what I want to be no matter what he is doing (i hate imagining what he does with her-yuck and stomach churning). Its my decision to act the way I want to be, not a reaction to him. Its my decision to DB and therefore that means no longer doing this to try and get a reaction out of him. Right? I am doing this for me right now. It almost doesnt matter what he says, does or think. I think I am starting to finally get my head around all of this.
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
