What's happens when u lose interest in WAS??

[2chiquitos]

In this past week I have made some goals for me.

-S3 no longer needs me to stay with him til he falls asleep! WHOO HOO!! A couple hours for myself!
-I kept up with my self esteem workbook (it really works)
-I journal every night
-I read my al anon literature
-I try to meditate daily or as often as I can.

I learned this week that I can't let go of my self help resources. When I do I crack!

I called a friend and regretted it. She's such a Debbie Downer! I am definitely keeping some distance from her for a bit.
I spent time with my family (siblings, mom, kids) today. I need to keep some distance from them also. Not forever, just until I can enjoy their company without being affected by their dynamics...

H said he didn't want to eat the breakfast I make for him because he doesn't want me to throw it in his face if I get angry. I cried. I said, I do it just because and don't expect anything in return. The tears just came out couldn't help myself.

Looking back, I think it's because he knows he's not coming back and doesn't want me to get my hopes up

I need to detach...