Something else I forgot to post today, last night I didn't wake up once! It's been almost six months since I've had a good nights sleep. I'm so use to waking up around 3:00. I definitely feel a shift in me. Maybe once I realized that my marriage is over and only a new one can be built, though I don't know that it will happen, the agony of not understanding what happen lifted. It is no longer important to me how we got here and who did what. We're here now, so I'll try my best to live my life and see what unfolds. I also noticed that when my H was here it was so natural for me to act happy because I WAS happy. Being the way that I felt was so much easier because my head wasn't involved. I wasn't thinking about all that had happened and what he had done. I was just being. OMG! What a good feeling. I'm praying for more days like today.
