Thanks Betsey!
You're right, this is hard work. I think you'll notice that very notion has slowly begun to dawn on me as of late.
Being hurt is the easy part! I know that sounds odd, but it's true. When you're hurt, you know what to do with yourself. You sit around and hate your life and justify eating 4 gallons of ice cream or whatever (o.k., cheesy nachos in my case! ) But, when you decide to repair yourself and stop being hurt, well, it is very difficult.

I often feel guilty about my situation as compared to yours, Meredith's, Pattie's, etc. After all, who am I to be in this "club?" H is home, h is in counseling. My sexual 'dry spell' lasted all of 2 months, tops.
Dammit, Betsey! Why do I spend so much of my life feeling guilty?
You're right, I doubt that I could handle what has been given to you. I would like to think that I could, but, who knows? I guess someone knew what He was doing when handing out our life assignments. Thank you, though, for recognizing that while my sitch would seem great to some folks, it does have it's own drawbacks.

When I first started posting here, someone (I think maybe Tracy) got aggravated with what I was saying and retorted with, "I would LOVE to have my H at home." It doesn't seem fair to say, "I would love to have my H move out until he is ready to fully commit to me."

I feel as though I keep falling into the same old trap. What am I missing here? To remain upbeat through the phone calls that are once again, in my opinion, a form of rejection....well, it makes me feel as if I am saying, "You do what you want! I will sit and wait for you!"
That is not who I want to be.

I DO NOT mind him going out for a beer. It does hurt to find out that so and so's wife (not part of the workplace) showed up there...

And, you could say that I don't HAVE to sit around. Well, much of the time I haven't a choice. My oldest son owns a classic car that would not perform very well in the snow (and -10 degree weather we've been having). Last night he left for work in my vehicle. So, I am kinda stuck. Plus, I do have S3 to stay with.

Anyway, Betsey, thank you for understanding.
I know I am a work in progress!

And, I will find a way to shake off this "poor me" mood. This counselor thing is really bothering me. It is a waste of my time, and causing more stress than it's worth. I think that $700 into it, I would have gotten something out of it! Oh, wait, I did! I now realize that H and I are "different."

Off to watch Nemo.
I need some inspiration!!!!