am i better off without him?

[scaredsilly]

the only thing that i think i would need is for them to understand that i deserve respect as his wife and for him to convey that to them. i need for him to think his relationship with me is as important (if not more) than the ones he has with his kids, his family, and his friends.

i've never felt that from him.

i honestly do not want to be their step mom anymore. i don't want to parent them or have anything more than a mutually respectful, casual relationship. i don't want to be expected to do more for them (or the rest of his family) than i would do for a visiting friend.

if their attitude did not change, i could still be with him but his attitude would have to change. he would have to understand why i did not want them in my life and be satisfied with them in his life only.

i don't know if he's capable of this since the past 15 years i've been expected to treat them as my own and his family as my own.

he starts counseling next week. maybe he'll make some breakthroughs.

thanks for taking the time to read my story and post on it. i don't post a lot but i do read others and post to them. not much since i'm not an expert.