I just woke up from the angriest dream. In it I confronted him in my old style of yelling and screaming and we got into a huge fight. I even screamed at his mom (who weirdly in the dream was my coworker). He told me his mom loved the OW and knew everything and was happy for him. I woke up with a stiff jaw, neck and a headache. Hoping some exercise will help.
oh man I've been there....I knew that H's friend was having a birthday party and my fear was in overdrive. He would bring her, they would all like her more than me. I'm friends with so many of them on FB I'd end up seeing pics of them together, etc. I even woke up in the middle of the night and checked the friend's FB page. Then I had a crazy dream and woke up with my hands clenching the slats in the headboard so hard they ached all day the next day, ground my teeth so much my head hurt. I was so embarrassed of that. and told no one besides my IC. But I want you to know it gets better.
The next week he told me he did take her and I felt like all the blood drained my body. It gets better. I'm not totally fine and happy with it all...just read my post from today...but it does get better. It nothing you want to hear but it's true it takes time.
