As a fixer (Bug will understand) I immediately went into should I wait until he arrives, what time do I need to be where and then is it the right thing to wait for him. And then I took a deep breath and didn't do any of that.
Today was strange. I woke up having had a dream that he came by and had GF with him, that he was helping her move and I was an errand on the list, but he was flirty with me the whole time. Anyway, I was a bundle of nerves wondering if maybe, possibly, he would turn up earlier than he had said to be sure to see me. Then being upset with myself for having that desire? wish? who knows....
I left a half hour before he said he was coming by and struggled to enjoy my day and not think about him. Took S out to lunch, then to a musical. When I turned on my phone after the musical I had a text from H "Chairs are in your garage" When I got home a few hours later I replied "They look great! I love them! Thanks!" he replied "Cool glad you like them. Forgot the shovel I'm afraid. I might drop it off later." I replied and said that was fine and made a joke about something.
I found it hard to concentrate today and felt a bit on edge. All because of 3 words in his text yesterday "very busy weekend" When this all started I don't either of us thought he'd be the one in a R first. And he is, with someone who I'm sure is considered a good catch by his friends and parents. (not in the looks dept but anyway)
I know I shouldn't think about her. I know I shouldn't think about them. I know I should focus on myself. I know I should act as if, and be distant. I am but it's hard sometimes.
So I may be seeing him tonight and I certainly seeing him on Tuesday. It's hard sometimes to know if this is pursuit or him "being a good friend" as my friends say.
