Important Breakthrough!
I am still thinking about this insecurity thing, so I don't have an answer to that. The breakthrough? I just realized I am not sitting here trying to justify my stupid behavior!!! I am somewhat embarrassed about it, to tell the truth.
For once, I am not seeing things as "Why does H make me act like this?"
I am saying, "why do I do this to us?"

Well, it's not rocket science, but I think that I just repaired a big hole in my life!!!