i understand the mixed emotions. the situation is out of control, and you are trying to figure it out. you know you cant control, which goes against who you are at the core. i struggle with the same things daily. my W left and we agreed that when we didnt have the kids, we would call them everyday. so far i have and she hasn't. it made me very mad at first. now it is just hurt. i hurt for my kids. being a LBS is not easy. i am amazed at the things you say and do. i read all your posts for inspiration. i have a feeling you will figure this out, and it will be in a healthy way.
