This time he did actually seem happy, but I know he's been very depressed lately. He spoke with a IC/psychiatrist yesterday and is going back again tomorrow.
I vowed to be with him for better and worse, and just because he's given up, doesn't mean that I have. I just don't want to see him get into a bad situation once we're divorced because he can't stand to be alone. I also had a therapist once tell me that I'm "hyper responsible" and try to take care of everything, so while I can stop worrying about his finances, household chores, etc. I can't give up on him.
He wants me to be happy. He keeps telling me that I can find someone better, cuter, smarter, with more in common than him. I've told him that you can always go searching for something better, but that I was perfectly happy with my choice of spouse and don't feel the need to see if something better is out there. He's depressed so I'm not sure how much of this is him talking or his depression.
As for me, I should be working this weekend, but don't have anything lined up right now. If I don't work, I have my final kickboxing testing to see how I've improved in the last ten weeks and a party for that on Saturday night, which I'll make sure I go to. I may also check out a Unitarian church on Sunday. I need to be out with people more often, other than when I'm just working. I don't want to be a crazy cat lady spending all her time in her apartment.
M36 XH34 M-5 T7 4/11 H confused 5/11 ILYB 6/11 OW discovered 7/11 I move out, OW over 5/12-OW2,done->new EA, but H wont file 9/12 H "best bf ever" to EA/OW3 3/13 H/OW break up H files 4/13 D 6/18/13