Hello, WAW. Is anyone there?

[AlwaysTrying]

Sandi, do you think I would have been better off saying, "You leave me no options. Because of your choice I must X, Y, and Z" and leave out the idea that I don't want things to go this way?

Should I not be living at home now? Should I not be fighting for custody of my kids?

Should I have just taken these actions without saying anything? Moving home was going to elicit extreme contempt no matter what. I'm just not sure what I should have done differently or how.

"I don't plan on bringing it up again for at least a month. I'm going to be quiet."

Impossible!

That's exactly what W thinks. She thinks I can't leave her alone. Now I can. I won't bring it up for at least 4 weeks. And maybe not then either.

This idea of whether I try to win custody of my kids or let my W walk all over me in the hope that I can win back her heart has split me in two, paralyzed me, and driven me crazy.

Right now, she's probably with OM down in FLA, crying her heart out. I know she brought the bracelets he bought her down with her. But I'm not asking and I'm not texting. I know she's let him make decisions for her in the past and that makes me really sad - that she'd rather trust his judgement than her own, and that he is looking forward to getting back into her pants. He places very little value on marriage. bah. whatever.

I stopped by the house earlier to drop off D15. W was in her room packing for the trip crying her eyes out. D asked what was wrong. "Everything".

Agreed.


I locked the doors of the house from the inside tonight. W is out there somewhere and my kids are under my roof with me. This feels right.

I'm still all for my kids having their parents' marriage intact. I feel I can LRT at this point, and maybe we'll work something out after divorce, in a year or two or whatever. Or we'll just move on.

I have IC tomorrow. She met privately with W last week. She is very pro-marriage, so if she has any ideas on how to avoid divorce, I'll be all ears. W and I meet together with that C on Monday night.