Any chance to make it work? I need advice

[sweetbabyred]

Today has been tough for me. It's H's birthday and the first where I haven't been invited to help him celebrate. I know we're separated, but he keeps saying he still wants us to be friends at the very least. It's hard to know that he's at our favorite restaurant with a group of friends (all of whom I know) and I'm not even invited.

What makes it ironic is that he always complained that I never wanted to go out and in the last year or so, before we even separated, I realized that I needed to make more of an effort to have fun and spend time with friends. And shortly after I decided that, H was done and has tried to have his own friends and not invite me anywhere.

I know that if we do D, I will most likely have little, to no, part in his social life, so I should get used to it now. I don't want to have any regrets, but I keep thinking that if I'd just made a little more of an effort a little sooner, maybe our situation would be completely different now.

I am glad that he's made an effort to make new friends over the last year as he always complained that he didn't have very many. I just wish it didn't upset me so much not to be a part of it.

I just have to keep reminding myself that I want him to be happy. And if spending this day celebrating with friends makes him happy, I should be glad that he's not in one of his depressed, woe is me moods. Maybe it'll remind him that there are many good people who care about him and he doesn't need to waste his time with those who don't.

Tomorrow is another, hopefully better, day. I just need to keep myself busy so that I'm not dwelling on it.