Hi, all! Well, I was a slightly bad girl last night. Not sure what the effects will be, but I may never know. Let me explain... H left for his trip at 3 a.m. Nothing eventful happened; I woke up and talked with him until he left. THEN I panicked. I blame this on 2 things: a. He was very nervous about the de-icing of the plane in this frigid weather, and it made me start to worry, and b. The movie "Beaches" was on, and I guess I got a little over-emotional... Anyway, I felt the need to talk to him before his plane took off... so, I called his cell phone. Thank goodness the signal was bad, but I managed to say, "I wanted to say something, but you're breaking up. Just hang up, and let me leave you a voicemail." So, I called back and said something to the effect of: "I'm laying here watching Beaches, which may have some reason for how I feel, (I was kinda emotional sounding) but I just had to tell you that I Love You before you take off. I'm sure everything will be o.k., but I just had to send you off in this way. Do me a favor, don't mention this call to me, o.k?"
What a maroon, as Bugs Bunny would say! What is it about that "wind beneath my wings" song that gets me all crazy? He probably isn't to his hotel yet- he had lots of guys to meet up with and a long drive from the airport, so I don't know when I will hear from him. I feel so stupid! It was just that, at that point, I was convinced that if something happened on the trip, and the last words I said to him were not "I love you," I would have never forgiven myself. Oh well. I guess I'll wait it out. I don't think it was such a smart move, as of course I am not reporting that he called right back to say "I love you too."
Interestingly enough though, last night he was joking around about the time I first said I loved him. We have differing accounts of what happened after this, but that's not important. His first way of telling me he loved me was to say, "I think I could love a girl like you..." (Give him a break, he was only 18!) ANYWAY, last night before bed he was hugging me, and he asked, "is this where I say, "I could fall in love with a girl like you?"
No idea what to make of that. But, as with everything else, if I think too much about it, I will drive myself insane!!!
