"I've been seeing this Dr. since October. She is the one that told me my happiness and self esteem have been pegged to however W feels about me at any given time. If she is "good" with me - I am fine. If she isn't - I am a mess. She was 100% right."
All who have read your story can agree with that Dr.
You're worth more than what your W has made you out to be! We who have kept up with your thread know that, but we want you to realize it.
"It is going to hurt like hell, but I have got to drop that rope and not look back."
Do you honestly believe it will hurt more than what you've already experienced? I'm not trying to tell you how you feel, but I wonder if you aren't feeling the worst right now. When we've been through the hardest part of "anything" then the rest of it doesn't seem quite as bad. This has been the day you've dreaded all these months. This has to be the hardest part, don't you think?
"I hope I can muster the strength to do it."
You already have the strength, Crimson! You have grown in leaps & bounds....remember? Believe in yourself! Someday, you will be telling your son that who & what kind of man he is does not depend on what some woman thinks of him.....but on what "he" thinks of himself. You will be a living testament to that piece of advice!
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
