this rocky path WILL smooth out

[zig]

wow - what a great discussion - and i hope that the vets and everyone else adds their bit. KD - everyone, thanks for responding. i need some time to reread and process it all myself

heck i was off line for a few hours and came back to all of this - it's great, i love it!

and KD - use my thread for a public discussion, all you want. this is where it's at - i'm finally GETTING it that it's not the everyday details that i need to chronicle here (though i'm sure i'll fall in that ditch every so often!!!)

it's these types of discussions that i think would be much more beneficial, as opposed to focusing on what he said, i did, i said he did - that is for sure the roller coaster. stepping off means seeing the bigger picture and finding one's way through it.

one thing that i have noticed over the last months as i have read through older threads in the archives - there was a lot more discussion along those lines in the threads than there seem to be now. now on most threads , people are writing about the details and others are supporting them and encouraging them to keep the faith, but these sorts of discussions are much harder to find currently.

what i'm finding that helps me the most to keep the faith and all the ingredients of the recipe at the forefront (as opposed to continuously worrying about every detail of the sitch), is when i read discussions such as these - where the bigger picture allows for empathy, understanding, patience and courage to stay still and stand where we are while AT THE SAME TIME gal and get our own life moving forward.

in fact - every time i think about the courage i need to stay the course, i start to cry. i guess i'm going through my own transition here. it's not that i don't trust that i can do it, i think it's more a combination of "wow, i didn't know i could be capable of this, and it touches me deeply" and "is this something that i can do and come out okay on the other side"

i guess until this sitch, i had no idea what i was truly capable of. and i'm sure that could be said of everyone else here, too.