How was that scene you described with the anniversary date wager going to play out? She was going to agree to the bet, show surprise when you pulled out the certificate, say 'oh gee now I have to go on a date with you,' and then on the date realize how wrong she's been about everything all along and reconcile with you? Or would she be extremely po'd that you were so arrogantly insistent on being right and pressuring her for a date she did not want to be on?
You seem to do superficial thinking on things and then act or react rashly without full judgment. Example - dating someone because your w was - childish and likely only to hurt your situation. Example - trying to get people here to get over your past because you have already put it behind you - perhaps your unfortunate word choices are suggesting that your work hasn't been completed on a deep level. You argue every point, and whine that you seem to do nothing right according to the other posters here, you are soooo defensive. Rather than trying to prove to the other posters that they are wrong and you are better than sliced bread, how about letting your guard down, letting the words sink in, and looking for where you might begin to heal yourself. The self-esteem is a good place to start.
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.