Darn it. I hope I have not said something that has made you feel uncomfortable to vent here. I get it, that this is a safe place for us to be.
I do know one thing and that is this, last summer when I felt all hope was lost, I prayed harder than I had ever prayed in my life. When my h was falling away from me and our d, when he was spouting off hateful things, and acting out I knew that I could not do much against that but DB and pray.
I gave it all to God somewhere in mid August and told him to please help me get through this, and to speak to my H's heart and take care of him. To help our little family over come all of this.
I prayed without ceasing, and I watched changes start to slowly take place in H around middle of Sept. It took him many weeks before he would be ready to work on the M, even though he was standing at the end of the tunnel, peeking out.
I know that I'm lucky that my H cycled through this faster than others, but the pain, the fear, the heart break are the same experiences I read here.
I guess what I'm trying to say is, I don't think there is much we can do to help them step out of that tunnel.
It's so frustrating when they peek out or even step out for awhile. There have been a few instances where I can see my h set one foot back into the tunnel for a few days, and I do hate those days but I have to step back and let him be. Just let him breathe and deal with his stuff without hovering, questioning, or asking. It's sooo hard not to do that.
