Welcome to the board.

You can always have HOPE but you can Have NO EXPECTATIONS.
Hope is within YOU and no one can take that away.

Get out and GAL.
DETACH.
Believe none of what he says and half of what he does.

Take care of yourself, breathe, eat, sleep, exercise.

You are on moderation right now on the forum.
SO post in small frequent posts until you get off of it.

Your H is giving you a GIFT.
THE GIFT OF TIME.

USE it wisely.

Me-70, D37,S36