It was by Carlos Xuma? Don't remember the name. No I won't bring it up. In fact I have been so proud of myself in not bringing things up and letting things go. Before part of my problem was even knowing that the outcome wouldn't be good I'd still bring it up or ask a follow up question about his GF or something like that.
I don't think less of him. If he did download that I'm actually impressed because it means he recognized a problem while I thought his head was firmly in the sand.
I'm looking at things a lot differently....both of incredibly unhappy but still liked each other. We would hurt one another but only because we weren't getting what we needed. But we never had ugly arguments or anything like that. Finally I took the time to figure out and admit to myself it wasn't working. And then I told him. He took ages to admit to himself and then to me that he hadn't been happy (instead of just saying that he didn't make me happy) and after months of me just looking at myself and feeling better about me I start to look at him again. And now he's looking at himself.
So today I did a bit of shopping and I'm getting my swagger back. I also thought about how big a 180 it is for me not to date. I have always been involved or had several suitors wining and dining me. I am really enjoying and taking pride in the fact that I am not dating, pursuing, etc. I'm not putting a timeline on it. IE we'll either reconcile or I'll start dating in 6 months/a year etc I'm just taking each day and learning more about myself!
