I was working out...wow that dark time is such a blur to me. I know there were several things I was trying to do to GAL, but it all seems so fuzzy now. I do remember working out a lot though.

I know what I'd like to happen...for my husband to wake up and see what he has in me and our family. For him to love me completely without any pause, and be the only one for him. I want the security of knowing he loves me enough that no one else mattered. I want him to live me as much as I love him...

He says he doesn't know what he wants...he said he lives me, but that we keep going in circles and he wants the circles to end. As far as he's concerned, he doesn't think very highly of himself and I can see that. He says he doesn't know why he keeps sabotaging himself, but that he's very lost right now.

I guess we both are...

M:38, H:37, SS:17, D:12
ILYBINILWY: Aug. 2011
OW Discovered: Mid Aug. 2011
Piecing from Aug. - Oct.2011
I Moved out: Nov.2011
Moved back in piecing since: Nov. 5, 2011
H talking to OW again: May 15