Didn't think I'd have to come back...

[FreeBird0120]

Well, I'm back and hoped that the reason I'd be back was different. I've been working hard on our marriage, and it seemed to be ok, minus the triggers and such, but just found out that H has started calling OW again in the last week. He lied about it at first, but then admitted to it.

Everything we've worked toward feels like it was for nothing. He claims he was really down and isn't able to talk to me about things because he doesn't want to hurt my feelings, make me cry or make me mad, and that he is, for whatever reason, able to talk to OW without any judgement. He says that it was just because he was extremely down and figured he'd talk to her to have her help him thru it and bring him back up, but I just can't believe anything he says anymore.

I'm hurt, so very hurt, and am afraid!! We've decided to give it one more shot, but now I feel like I'm just waiting for the bottom to fall out again. I'm so lost again...what should I do??

I was hoping that when I returned to this sight, it would be to help others once I was completely healed...but that isn't the case now...when will this pain ever stop??