I completely agree with you, Starsky. That's why I am still on the rocks, and don't necessarily think we're fully in piecing. I absolutely NEED him to cut ALL contact.
I am trying to figure out how to do it...thinking about a timeline. I don't want to bring it up constantly, because it will drive him away. He knows exactly how I feel, and it hurts so much when he just brushes it off. His best answer is "I'm still here, aren't I?" or "I'm wearing my ring again." While those things are great, they are not enough.
I do want to note all the improvements though, it is just soooo different at home now. Before, the anger, glazed eyes, the tension that could be sliced with a knife.
So what's holding him back to commit? I wish I knew for sure, but he said that he needs to know that I love him, and that he's the only one. He's making this out to be a "this for that" kind of thing. If you do this, I will do that...so completely immature.
According to him, I pushed him away, didn't give him enough attention. His reason for finding the attention elsewhere was that he "thought we were done".
He still doesn't want to go to MC or get any other help, so I feel like the "piecing" part is all on me to figure out. Obviously, neither of us wants to go back to how things to be. And some days I wonder why I'm still putting up with this.
