24 hours until mediation...ugh! My gut is just churning and my head is spinning.

I wrote W this email right at 9:00 this morning - 24 hours:

24 Hours

The nausea has all ready crept in...and my head is spinning. I just want you to know that we will get through all this together...I support you and your need for change. I still don't want to do this because my gut still tells me this is the wrong path but I love you too much not to be here for you, not to support your yearning for emotional stability.

I will always love and adore you. I will do everything in my power to make sure our children are happy and stable. I will always be your friend and be there for you in every need. Please trust that I truly mean this...and that I will always be totally committed to you and our beautiful girls.

Love always,

Me:44, W: 39
D:16, D:14, D:11(special needs)
M:17, T:21+
Bomb:3/18/12
W contacted mediator for D:3/27/12
Separate since bomb
Mediation, signed agreement 5/17/12
No talk of D since mediation