O.K.,
I was a good girl and went to the session.
The C asked to see us seperately. (thank goodness!)
I went first, and told all about the positives over the holidays. Then I mentioned the little "snafu" from last night. We discussed what it could mean.
She said that if nothing else, she was sure that she got through to him last session that he needs to come clean about EVERYTHING, and that if he doesn't he may as well forget it. She said it all sounded odd, but you never know with technology, and that she would get to the bottom of it.
Then we discussed how much of a cool and hip chick I am. O.K., I am embellishing here. But, she did say my insight was amazing. (Why am I paying her, then? )
Oh, and I did tell her that I was a bit put off last session by her suggesting that if I feel H is moving too slowly we can discuss me moving on without him. I said that this is not an option, I was there to save my marriage, and she had to be on that same page. She took that well and I think we understand eachother there.
Then it was H's turn. I do have to say this, we get our money's worth over there. The session is supposed to go for 45-50 minutes; we average an hour and a half to an hour and 40 minutes! We are either really interesting, entertaining, or just that much F'ed up. Don't know which it is yet.
So, they came out after I had spent time reading through about 100 trivial pursuit cards. I was told that there was no need for me to come next time. H laughed at me and said to get rid of the pouty face, I could come back the time after. Fine with me! I know that I am way further ahead in this game than him.
On the way home we discussed his part of the session. He is still talking about things that happened way before me. He did ask me "How did you come to the place where you were able to make all of these changes?" I did my best with that one. He is trying, I'll give him that. I feel for him right now. I know what it's like to hate yourself that much. At least I know that coming out of it is possible. I hope that he can get there. Notice my patience here. I did not say, "I hope he gets there SOON."

Also, H read part of the 5LL book...he grudgingly admitted that he "may" be a "words of affirmation" person. BUT, and this is interesting to me, he says he doesn't want to be, because needing to hear those things is a weakness. He has a major hangup with being perceived as weak. I have no idea how to get around this. I need to think on it for awhile.
So, I am in a great mood right now. Of course, I was 24 hours ago too! Ha ha, let's not go there. I choose to be happy, I choose to believe him, and I choose to go to bed now.
Happy Friday! I have the day off!!!!!

Oh yes, H also mentioned that I handled this latest incident very well. He said that he was surprised at how I did not jump right into a reaction. He said that my changes are very real, and very evident.
Yeah for me!
Mind you, I am not like a giggly teenager because he noticed this. I'm just so happy to have gotten to this place. A year ago, this would have ended with his clothes on the front lawn. I am so evolved!