4th and long, goal to go, touchdown required

[Broken74]

Thanks bug! I've thought about that angle but I don't think that's it. The pursuit is just a means to an end, a requirement but not something that I feel I "get off" by doing.

I forgot to mention above that maybe part of it is that I have a terrible case of the broken bird/white night syndrome. Maybe part of my problem is knowing that she still needs help. The thing I've learned through all of this is that I know I can't help her, she has to help herself.

The funny thing is there's absolutely nothing about the new lady friend that needs fixing... And she's quite possibly the most amazing woman I have ever met.

This stuff still flies around my head, but I can say at this point I am truly happy. My life is great, I am sleeping well, got promoted at work and have little idle time. I am going to thrive regardless of how this ends up playing out. For the first time in my life I'm living in the moment, trying to not dwell on the past and not worry about the future. I am really blessed and have nothing to complain about. I could take my worst days over the past 8 months and compare it to the trials other people are going through in their lives and ask myself what am I whining about again?

This whole ordeal has really changed me and my outlook on life, and I am seeing light at the end of the tunnel, I am looking forward to see how it plays out.

Thanks again for your post and good luck!