I just responded to something you wrote on Nblosts thread because it resonated so strongly with me - then I came over and visited your thread.
Oh you beautiful woman. I know you. I am you. You talk the talk, but getting it from your head to your heart ... well, that's a much longer journey.
PEIs post is a wonderful loving contribution for you to reflect on.
April, this stuff is hard and painful. Perhaps the most ridiculous part is that you can see the complete idiocy of your life-time partners behaviour (ie flowers to everyone neatly compartmentalised in groups ... completely inappropriate, but in his head, fair and equitable!!! **)
I'll write more tomorrow, but for now, it's really important that you don't take this stuff personally. His behaviour is not about you. It does not reflect on you and it is not motivated by you. Lose any sense of responsibility for it right now.
Your rhetoric in the other post was great. That's the place you need to get to - but for the time being, be patient with yourself. It is going to take more than a few months.
(((April)))
V
Never make someone a priority, who makes you an option.
