Had a dream last night that we got through mediation...it went okay but was very hard...there was crying, a little anger but overall not too bad. When we were leaving, my W turned to me and said, "So, have you learned your lesson?" I said, "WHAT?!" She said, "Have you learned your lesson? Have you seen now what you can lose by all this?" I said, "This has all been some kind of learning tactic for you. You've ripped my heart out to teach me a lesson?!" She said, "Yes, I felt it was the only way to get you to truly change." I stood there for about 3 minutes...not really knowing what to do, or say. Then, I grabbed her, held her with all my soul...and cried...vowing with all my heart to be everything she needed me to be and that I will prove to her daily my love and adoration.
I felt great waking up...and then of course, it all came crashing down on me. It appears I still need some serious me-time.
Me:44, W: 39 D:16, D:14, D:11(special needs) M:17, T:21+ Bomb:3/18/12 W contacted mediator for D:3/27/12 Separate since bomb Mediation, signed agreement 5/17/12 No talk of D since mediation
