My own thread...my sordid story.

[Meredith]

Pamela! I am so glad you started your own thread. Now you can journal and see your progress (as well as what doesn’t work) easily.

We have a lot of similarities, you and I. This…

I know that my ambivalence was from a lack of security and feeling loved. So, I did the completely WRONG thing- I made myself as unlovable as possible (whiny, needy, dependant), and wondered why he didn’t respect me.

…could have been me!

This…

“too good for him, and he wanted someone more on his level.”

…is why our counselor thought H had had his affair, because I was so successful and he, well, wasn’t.

And this…

Looking back, I know that when I felt insecure I brought it up, hoping to hear some words of security. When that didn’t happen, I started a fight, knowing we would make up afterwards and I would get what I needed that way.

…defines my summer!

So welcome to your new home…even if it is in a place called ‘infidelity and jealousy’ (not exactly a sub-division many people would be attracted to by the name) and we’re all glad to have you as a fellow DBer and a great friend!