I retain a little tiny sliver of hope, but as I've said before, I have to be pragmatic right now. I just can't go on doing the same thing expecting different results. I'm not prepared to file for D at this point. I need to get through the next month or so, alone, dark. And focus on myself, my work and becoming the best person I can be. I have gone to my W too many times to seek a way to move forward together. I have expressed what my hopes are. She is not talking in terms of "we." She needs to let her guard down and come to me. I can't continue this fruitless pursuit that is leading me nowhere.
