Not sure where to start, Part 3

[jks]

I guess one of the main things that I've learned about DB'ing is that even if you feel like you have no hope, if you continue to do it, in the long run it makes you a better person whether your spouse stays with you or not. That's why it has to be more for YOU than for him.

I am moving towards D with my H and I've realized in the last couple days that I am not proud of my behavior over the these past weeks. Had I really followed true to DB'ing throughout our mess, I know I would feel so much better about myself and my actions. So I've decided to take the "high road" and to DB and "act as if" until the day it's over. And even then, it isn't really over...

But I'm doing it because I've been on the other side where I've said everything I wanted to say and I've acted totally irate and when all is said and done, I ALWAYS regret it. I don't want to have regrets anymore.

All the things you're doing are positives in your favor. Keep it up!