I can't do it, AJ. I'm really feeling sad and angry today. I just ran five miles hoping to shake this, but I fought back tears the whole time. Some days I'm more or less fine and then I have days like today where I'm barely able to cope. I wanted to enjoy my kids today, but instead I left for a few hours, trying to run away from my grief. Maybe later in the week I can show my gratitude, but right now I just can't. I'm really a better person than this, but I just need to remain NC to protect myself.
