Not sure where to start, Part 3

[wishing, hoping]

Just feeling so dark. I really feel like H is dead set on D. I feel very hopeless right now. I don't feel like even trying to DB any more. I know I haven't been doing this very long but I feel like no matter what I will never reconcile my marriage. Maybe I can only hope to be friends and co-parent with him.

Now I am second guessing myself. I still plan on working on myself to become a better mother and GAL'ing. I guess I could use some words of encouragement. Need to get a coaching session. I have been putting it off.

Our anniversary is next weekend. Not looking forward to that.