One of the big issues in this M has been the "power struggle." It's been an issue that's come up in every other R she has had. She's always had to hold the power. To have the upper hand. She's been the one who has left others. What she has needed is balance. And at the peak of our R, there was balance. I don't know where things tilted. I'd pursue her. Make her breakfast in bed (so many times). Do things for her. I'd give, I wouldn't receive. The one point in this separation where she wanted me, it's when I wasn't pursuing. Now I haven't pursued in the past few weeks, but she's clearly moved on mentally. It's such a catch 22. She says she wants an emotional connection but when I pursue that connection to her, she backs off completely. She must be an IC's dream come true. (No wonder the IC recommended a weekly session). There are so many catch 22's and oxymorons in this whole sitch, it would make your head spin. That's why I feel the absolutely only thing I can do at this point is to completely go dark. I'm always there. When I haven't been there, it's at least made her think.
