I've been emotionally up and down today. I was very surprised this morning when my boys gave me a nice gift that my H actually took S15 to buy (H paid). I initially was going to text him thanking him for taking S, but then my head got in the way and I became angry. I kept thinking he probably only did it to make himself feel better about the person that he is. Then a few hours went by and my heart soften and I thought about texting again, but thought I should wait a bit to see how I feel. Well, opportunity lost. I'm angry all over again. I spent some time by myself doing a little shopping. I'm still trying to put together a work wardrobe after so many years as a SAHM. Of course, I have to do it all on a budget. That makes me mad. If H was here I wouldn't have financial concerns. After that it was back to reality. I stopped at the grocery store and now I cooking my own Mother's Day dinner while H is probably with an OW. Should I text or not, even if I don't feel like it?
