I guess I look at it like this...I am on my own now. So there's no preparing for it and so are you. So I'm becoming happier and happier on my own and still have hope for the future....come what may
Corny I know but it's true.
I do want what's best for him and only a selfish person wants a R even if it isn't the best for both people. Also I really like him as a person! And I want to always know him even if it's as friends.

I guess I'm a little bit lucky in that neither of us has brought up D. There is a visa issue he has to sort out before that can happen. I have left that visa issue squarely in his corner and it hasn't been brought up. He told me ages ago his company started the paperwork but I've heard nothing. I'll cross the D bridge when we come to it. Pre Change of Heart I'd done all the research and told him all about it.