On the acting 'as if'. I found this very hard to do at first. What I did was start concentrating on the blessings I still had versus what I had lost. It wasn't long before I wasn't acting anymore.
Kimmerz is right, this is a long journey for us too. You will grow and change in ways that will empower you.
The thing I thank God for is that I get to take this journey with a clear and sane mind. My decisions and choices are not driven by emotions, unlike my H's.
There have been times where I was angry believing my H was out living the high life with his ow. Snodderly was so right when she told me that if I sat quietly, answers would come to me. Some of the things I learned about my H's 'new life' made me understand the phrase, "All is not as it seems".
I've turned it over to God and laid it at His feet. He's working on the other side of the mountain. This will turn out exactly like it is supposed to, and through your own journey you will gain the tools you need to deal with it no matter what way that is.
