I am very depressed. Yes, I filed for divorce in Feb and it is over now. The divorce that is. I am not taking any of her calls, which have been few. I was considering getting back with her last week, she was begging, she stayed a few days and told me how much she wanted the family back, even prayed to God for it, then she went back to drug dealer that she is sleeping with and told me that she loved him. I know that she doesn't love him. That was said to hurt me. I am sick that she is sleeping with many men for pills and i guess self esteem issues. I am smarter now. I will not even listen to a word she has to say and we will never run into each other, different town. I really don't ever have to talk to her again. Which is my plan. She has nothing that I want.
I really can't take her back. I would obsess about the sex with other people. She knows that. I just didn't think she was that morally corupt. I guess alot of people on this board feel the same way. I am sick of this consuming my thoughts and my life. It is all the time. When we where together I thought of the future and all kinds of things that did not involve her at all. Never dreamed about her. Now apart-she is in my mind at all times. Of course, she doesn't know this. I think that she thinks that I still care and want her but she will find out I don't or won't do that again.
