Kimmerz, you are so right. It is a long journey for us too and some parts, for me, have actually been good. I am definitely struggling though with the thought of my H with someone else and my own loneliness. I so don't want to be single again. The thought of dating sickens me. On the other hand I can't imagine being alone for the rest of my life. I really enjoyed being married even though some of it was difficult.
GWN, thank you so much for the clue. I was starting to wonder how I was ever going to find the post I needed. However, I have continued to learn a lot from those earlier threads. I believe it was TMAK's story that I was reading this morning. Her story had a good ending.
Ottocat, my H is very much looking out for himself and seems much more concerned with his own financial well being than that of mine and the boys. It's really amazing to me how someone who has children can be so self-absorbed.
I've been reading The Four Agreements again and one seems so applicable to what we are all dealing with. It's the second one, Don't Take Anything Personally: Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won't be the victim of needless suffering. Oh how I want to master that one along with the others.
