Today I was depressed. It's been a while since I've felt like this for a day.

If I had a button that would make me unconscious and let tomorrow start, I would probably push it.

The fact that my wife contacted her lawyer to get things started again just days before her birthday and Mother's day makes the rejection feel so much worse.

She really does not value me or my contribution to our family is the picture that is starting to form in my head.

I'm tired. I'm sad. I don't understand why it has to be this way.

- All for the kids -
Me:34, W:35
M:7, T:13
S6, D3 + my D15 from previous marriage
July 2011 "I think I need a separation"
W filed D September
Currently living apart - she has the house, I rent a room