You are right that I am trying to be a better person than I was before. I do know that I need to learn to not hold grudges or to be so resentful to people that hurt me. I need to learn how to forgive more and understand that people can change!
That's just how I've always been. I put up a wall so I don't get hurt, then I let people in and I always end up getting hurt...especially by the people that were never supposed to hurt or leave me (my dad and now my husband!).
I do, honestly, feel as if I was the best wife to my H. I took care of him, our house, planned places for us to go, had a life outside my H, never really fought with him, always tried to see his side of things...
The worst thing about getting a divorce is not learning from it and that's what scares me...Besides knowing that I need to work on 'letting go' of things, I don't know what else I could have done differently to make my M work.
And the 'letting go' of things was only this past year because my H texted and took a girl out from his work over a year ago and hid it from me and dropped the bomb back then that he didn't want to be married anymore...before that bomb, I completely trusted him and had no issues with my H as a person or as a H.
M: 27 H: 28 T: 8 yrs M: 6 yrs Sep: 2/18/12 (I have no feelings for you!) EA/PA Uncovered: 2/26/12 H introduces OW to his fam: June H moves ALL stuff out: July
