She is your ex, no one said you had to take her back. I think the first thing you need to do without reading your situation is get to a doctor and also get to a counselor. You need to find something that will provide you a focus which will help you to move forward.
You need to let this person go. Focus on you and getting yo feel better. Go to Newcomers hasn't been easy for me but I will try to read up on your situation.
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Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
