Forgiveness

[antlers]

I have to 'get' my kids first before I can get them help.
If I take firm, definitive, and 'controlling' action right now...my kids are going to go to Texas and be 500 miles away from me. Then I will have NO ability to influence their lives at all, or be a model to them of redemption, forgiveness, and perserverance...and unconditional love. They are both old enough that they CAN go where they want (as far as with their mom or with me)...and the Courts WILL let them make that decision themselves.
Keep in mind that I was CONTROLLING in addition to being angry, resentful, and emotionally abusive to those that I cared about the most in the past.
I don't expect any of you to understand and/or agree...but I assure you that I DO love my kids more than any of my critics here. And I certainly wouldn't profess to know more about their situations (my critics) than they themselves do.