Not sure where to start, Part 3

[wishing, hoping]

Okay am I a doormat or what? After soccer I took the kids for ice cream and a walk downtown. Beautiful evening and I wanted to enjoy it with my children. We get back home and sure enough H did a load of wash but didn't put it in the dryer. So I put it in the dryer. I need to do a load as well so when his clothes are dry I took them out and for a moment considered tossing them back in the hamper not folded or sorted. Then it hits me. I want to do something nice for him. It was a total 180 for me because usually when I am angry I let it be known. My 180 was to control my anger but that doesn't seem to send a powerful enough message. So I took out the clothes, folded them neatly and sorted them and put them on his bed so he could put them away when he got home. See, he would expect me to just pile the clothes on the bed in a messy heap. He would NOT expect me to fold them and Place them neatly on the bed for him to put away especially after the A was revealed and the incidents of last weekend.

And it feels good. Heart-warming. I am proud of myself for rising above the nastiness and the anger and doing an act of service out of love. It made me feel better. H may not notice or care or even think about it but I know and I feel good about myself for being the better person. Maybe I am starting to get the hang of it??