After she walked away she said she wanted to work on things and you guys went on a date right? In my mind that means she hasn't shut the door. Since moving out has she brought up filing for divorce? If not I'd say that's a good sign. She's said that she's watching for changes either she's sadistic and just wants you to feel paranoid or that's a positive thing!
I'm not sure what you're asking did I feel that I didn't have that feeling? I think for awhile in our relationship years even we stopped seeing ourselves as equals. Something happened that I haven't talked about on the board that triggered a massive insecurity thing for me and he felt like I'd never forgive him (no not an infidelity) when I finally pulled the trigger and ended it my self esteem was at an all time low. I was being rejected physically, emotionally, and thru spending time by the man I had chosen above all others to spend my life with. I was hurt I was angry I felt like a failure I felt unloved, unwanted, and embarrassed that we'd have to tell our friends and family. With all of that going on I had no room to consider his feelings or even think about my feelings for him. My feelings for myself had come second for years!!! It took me about 4 months but that could have gone on for ever. There is no timeline. It's about people putting the work in. Many of us come to DB and look at it like a recipe if I DB at 180 for 3 months then my M will be perfect. So you try to 180 and GAl but it's not genuine or honest. I can almost tell you to the day that he stopped feeling sorry for himself. He wasn't pursuing me. I thought he didn't really care too much that I'd ended it...when he just did all his grieving in private. But I can tell you he picked himself up he started making choices and decisions and even said I feel like for the first time in years life isn't just happening around me.
I know what you're feeling because when I came around he's moved on and I cried like a mad woman. And I told myself it can't hurt any worse than this and two days later I'd be right there sobbing even harder thinking it does hurt worse now. I felt panic-y, I was fixated, more than anything I felt lost. I don't really relber much of March to mid April.
Start reading self help books, take the focus from what she's doing to who you are! I know it's hard. He told me so much about GF tv commercials make me think of them. But you have to focus on you! You have to come first. You'll force yourself at first and then it gets easier.
