No, no contact at all. She called tuesday or wednesday night but I didn't answer and my voice mail is full. I deactivated my facebook. I am trying to move on. I told her I was moving on. So, I don't see the point in a conversation anymore. I fixate on her having sex with other people. Yes, I know don't worry about things that you can't control on all that but it still floods my mind constantly and I have to push it out. Yes, I think she is having sex to get her fix. I can't believe that she has turned to this. Before, she always had her parents or me to give her money but now neither of us are giving her money. She smokes, and has to get someone to buy those for her. I said from the start that I need to get over this and that is my plan and what I want. I can't forgive, I am not a big enough person to forgive and forget those actions. It will always be an issue for me. So, I can't take her back therefore I must move on. Sounds simple-but it is not.
