My Story So Far. Is this even worth saving?

[timbits]

H was a lot more affectionate last night and this morning. We went to dinner at my parents' home and they kept saying how I needed cough syrup (still have a chest cough, going on my second week at this point) and H kinda perked up and went to the drug store for me. This morning he was being silly with me, which is usually a good sign for him.

I think he is noticing that I'm pulling back a little. I still talk to him and act happy around him, but I'm more sparse with my words. I definitely try to keep the conversation to a minimum. Well, at least on my end. I don't initiate as much. I leave it for him to start a conversation.

Hopefully it will all work out, but I decided that regardless of what happens, I WILL be OK. I know I'll be fine, whether we D or stay M. I will be happy and healthy and do whatever it takes to get there. I am starting to love myself, which is a good first step. How can I expect H to love me when I don't even like myself?