Needing some guidance... 3

[jks]

I read my entire thread from start to finish last night. It reveals quite a lot about me.

I am a super emotional person. I have been way up and way down and quickly. I let H's actions affect me too much.

Accuray, reading over all of your advice is making even more sense now than it did then. Maybe my DB'ing isn't over?? Ugh, I know, it's like make up your mind, girl!!

The reason I feel that H could very well not be a 100% sure about his decision is because look at me. I have said so many different things depending on the day. And when I was saying it, I was sure that was what I wanted.

And when I was DB'ing my best, H was coming around much more than ever before.

So my 180's...
I'm losing my anger.
Smiling and "acting as if" when I'm in H's presence.
No pursuing and R talk.
No crying.

And I'm going to put my energy into...
Being a patient and present mother.
Building my business.
Keeping things clean and put away around the house.
Exercising.
Spiritual reflection and prayer.
Reading self-help books.

I am so grateful that I have these forums to come to. To say that they are a lifesaver is an understatement. They are a lifeline. Giving me direction when I otherwise wouldn't have it.

Thank you to everyone who posts here. Words cannot express my gratitude.