your hsband did not look outside the marriage because of things you lacked but because of things he lacked...
he lacked the ability to tell you what he wanted he lacked the ability to communicate with you fully
you are NOT a mind reader
you may not have been fully tuned in... you maybe did not do things in ways that you were always proud of
you can own those things but not your husband's choices
Great post fig! It was a reminder that we can only own and be responsible for our own choices.
Ro.. It's really hard to always be superwoman. Hmmm... Makes me think of that song.. Do you know the one I'm talking about. Early in the morning I put breakfast on the table.. And make sure that your coffee has its sugar and cream.. Your eggs are over easy, your toast done lightly.. Sigh
I honestly don't know how you do it. It takes incredible strength to continue trying to DB when you are constantly reminded of OW. But.. Love is a choice. Are you choosing to love even when you don't feel loving? Just a question. No advice.
Me:38.. H:33. Two beautiful kids S:6 D:3 M:8.. together for 11. Bomb dropped:10/17/11 Separated:11/07/11
