Thanks for the thoughts today. I think that she is ill, maybe not. She is an addict and she doesnt love me. I don't understand how she or why she became so sexual with om? It really doesnt matter. He does give her pills and takes them himself. It makes me jealous that she is getting used. She has nothing, no cell phone, no car, no job and I guess sex is all she has to offer someone. She certainly wanted to do it with me alot last week, gave me a bath, it is just crazy that she strung me along for so long. She told her friend that she didn't think she loved me anymore. Told me that she loved om. That is a sign that she doesnt want me around. It just sickens me. Maybe she came down to see and didn't feel anything. I dont know and i am sick of trying to figure it out.
