Indecision and the affair continues (part 3)

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Quick update,
I went on my women's retreat and it was fantastic. Great chance to bond with a mix of women and share experiences. It was interesting to hear a range of perspectives. In some ways, definitely a lesson that no one's life is perfect (married, divorced, widowed, single). And also a lesson in that we can all make it through very challenging situations and make it out the other side in a better place.

I came out of that with a renewed sense of calm and that I am on the right path. I am really feeling like I'm done with H and ready to move on.

That said, I get home and H is nice/friendly. He's still in the house and stayed with the kids for a couple nights this week while I had work travel. I doubt anything has changed with his affair situation, but he does seem more involved with the kids and maybe less in his "fog". He still seems in denial that I've filed or that I want him to move out. For example, this weekend, he's back on Saturday morning and wants to go to my parents place for the weekend as a family.

I guess I'm just tired of dealing with him and I'm feeling like I'd be happier if I moved on.